Out of the Broom Closet.

It’s been five years. Five whole years since I chose my path and it’s time to come out of the Broom Closet.

I am a Witch. An Eclectic Solitary Witch to be precise. I hthumb_IMG_2647_1024ave been practising Witchcraft and following a Pagan path for roughly five years now and I thought that it was time to finally talk about it. I have never particularly hidden my beliefs but I’m not as open about it as I would like to be and I’m hoping that this post will be the beginning of that.

As a Pagan Witch, I don’t worship Satan, I don’t sacrifice animals, I don’t Hex and Curse people. As a Pagan Witch I worship nature, celebrate Sabbats and Esbats (the changing of seasons and moon cycles), carry out ‘spells’ to put good vibes out into the universe in the hope that those good vibes will be returned.

There is a horrible amount of stigma around Paganism, Witchcraft, Wicca etc. this is probably to do with the fact that a while back it was normal to capture people like me and burn us at the stake however, this reaction came from a fear of the unknown and perhaps if people actually took the time to understand Pagans and Witches, the world might learn to accept us for what we are rather than making assumptions.

I strongly believethumb_IMG_2645_1024 that I have always been a Witch. I’m convinced that it has been passed down to me and although those relatives do not practise Witchcraft, there are certainly signs that point to a family coven! When I finally discovered and learnt about Paganism I knew instantly that it was me.

Paganism historically is one of the oldest ‘religions’ or followings and what you may find is that a lot of commonly celebrated holidays are based on Pagan holidays. An example of this would be Christmas which shares an extremely large amount of similarities with the Pagan holiday, Yule.

Today I have finally re-set up my Altar which you can see some photos of throughout this post. An altar is a safe space for carrying out any workings whether it is a ritual, divination, meditation or anything that requires a calm and safe area.

I would like to write some more posts about Witchcraft and Paganism and hopefully I can contribute to removing the stigma surrounding these things.

If anyone has any questions please go ahead and ask; I’m more than happy to share my experiences and knowledge!

Blessed Be.

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Getting Some Headspace.

When you think of Meditation, what do you think of? Maybe Hippies, Buddhists, or waterfalls and tree roots. In all honesty, Meditation could be related to any of these things, it can be related to anything you want.

downloadRecently I have fallen head over heels in love with meditation. I remember from a young age that my dad would often meditate and I was always eager to give it a try. I struggled many a time to meditate due to a wandering mind; I always believed that if you were thinking whilst trying to meditate then you were doing it wrong but this could not have been further from the truth.

My dad always used to explain to me that meditation is simply resting your mind; painting, walking or even listening to music are just a few activities that could be classed as meditating as they allow your brain to take a break. These days, our brains are constantly stimulated, we are often multitasking – this includes when you are watching a film and checking your phone at the same time – and our brains never get the chance to shut down; I am a strong believer that this is partly the cause for an increase in anxiety and insomnia. It is so important to take time to wind down and this is a lesson that I have learnt the hard way.

I got to a point, as most of you know, where my mental health was at an all time low and although I’m not going to go into detail about this on this post, I do want to point out that one of the biggest battles I faced was the war inside my head every single night. I would lay in bed just internally screaming at my thoughts to shut up and I know that many of you probably experience a very similar situation most nights. I tried so many different things including meditating however, I wasn’t really sure how to successfully shut my brain off and focus my mind; then I found Headspace.

I would just like to state that this post is no way sponsored or an Ad etc. I just really want to recommend an app that helped save my life. As ridiculous as that sounds, there were points when I felt suicidal and meditation, along with many other factors, was one of those things that grounded me and made me feel less like a shell and more like an actual human being.

The app encourages daily meditation, whether it’s ten minutes or half an hour. There are daily meditations as well as some designed to tackle specific issues. All meditations are guided and you can literally pop your headphones in and relax your mind. I choose to mainly meditate in the mornings to set me up for the day, to deal with any anxieties that may be building. Also, one of my favourite little extras in the app is the notifications that you can receive throughout the day which are just a gentle nudge to remind you to be more mindful.

You can download Headspace from the app store and gain access to tons of free guided meditations, why not give it a go?

On that note, I’m off to meditate. Ciao x

To anyone that is still listening…

Does anyone actually remember me by this point? Ah well, I’m going to continue talking like you are all listening.

HELLO, it’s me, your friendly neighbourhood Viper and if you hadn’t noticed, I have been away a while. This is mainly due to moving house, dealing with some personal life crap & most importantly, catching up on Game of Thrones. That is correct, I am now officially part of the GoT fandom & I am so proud.

Halloween is nearly here and the nights are getting longer. This is my favourite time of year & if you didn’t already know, I am a witch. Yes, literally a witch. I practice witchcraft, I worship nature, I celebrate Sabbats and Esbats. Hocus Pocus and all that jazz. Being a Witch is quite a logical reason for my love of Halloween and Autumn in general. Halloween, or Samhain as it is known to us, is the Witch’s New Year and this time of year tends to pull me out of any creative blocks I may be experiencing and generally it gives me a new spark for life. What I am trying to say is that you will be seeing & hearing a lot more from me & I have so many things to share with you all, so keep those peepers peeled & expect the unexpected. (That was not a hint that your ex is about to appear on a beach somewhere- those in the know, will know!)

By the way, I am currently reading American Psycho. No spoilers, but someone dies…

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Going Sober.

Today I have decided to begin a month of sobriety.

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As most of you will probably know by now, I suffer with mental health problems. I haven’t discussed this in too much detail on my blog, instead I have spoken about things that affect my mental health or things that are affected by it and this post is going to be very much a long those lines.

Anyone who takes anti-depressants on a regular basis will know that the majority of the time you are advised not to drink alcohol whilst medicated however, if like me, there is a high possibility that you will be on these tablets for a long time, if not the rest of your life, you are often able to begin to introduce alcohol little by little back into your life. This is what I have been trying to do but unfortunately, I have given up.

Every time I have a drink, whether it’s just one or maybe a few, I will wake up the next morning feeling awful. I instantly feel symptoms of anxiety creeping up on me and some days it can even bring my depression up to the surface. We all know that alcohol is a depressant so it’s no surprise really that this happens. For a while, I kept adjusting how much and what I was drinking, in an attempt to discover my limit but I kept waking up the following day feeling like everything was too much to handle.

I have come to the conclusion that whilst I’m in a situation where my mental health is slightly un-stable and my body is getting used to the medication I am taking, I need to lay off the booze. This has brought me to the decision that I shall be going sober from a month starting today.

It’s going to be an interesting journey and I’m not sure how it will pan out but what I do know is that I need to look after myself and alcohol is not assisting in that. An extra bonus to this is that hopefully I will save some money!

I will post on here after the month and summarise how it was and my next steps. If you are sober, straight edge or have had any experience with giving up drinking I would love some advice!

Thanks for reading & have a fabulous day/night/evening!

 

Fiends Forever

As I’m sat here preparing myself to watch The Walking Dead, I thought I would talk a little bit about my love of horror. It’s about time you got to know me!

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If you hadn’t realised by now, I love all things creepy, gory and genuinely anything that your average person would cringe at. I have always had an interest in the supernatural and anything ghoulish and this became more apparent when I was in junior school. I would find myself creating ‘ghost clubs’ and constantly researching about the supernatural and discussing it with my friends, regardless of how terrified they would get. I specifically remember a book in the school library about ghosts that I used to read over and over; I wish I could still remember the name of it!

Luckily for a weirdo like me, I had a best friend who was equally as weird (YES ELLIE, I’M LOOKING AT YOU!). We would spend so much time talking about things that most youngsters would have no interest in. We would love scaring ourselves and would often encounter supernatural experiences together. Now, there is a very likely chance that there was a logical reason for all of these goings on and that we just hyped each other up to the point where we thought we saw/heard something, or perhaps it was genuinely real as I’m fairly sure some things I have experienced have been real.In the future I would like to talk more about my spooky experiences because I personally love hearing other people’s ghost stories.

So, from quite a young age, Ellie and I would watch horror films together. I specifically remember watch Hide and Seek, Final Destination and When a Stranger Calls together. I also, from a young age, had an obsession with witches, an obsession which still stands today and I honestly have no idea where this obsession came from. When I was younger my parents would always tell me that monsters and ghosts etc. weren’t real however, as I got older I actually discovered that my mum believes a lot more than she let on; what a little liar right!tenor

As I got older, more and more horror was introduced to my life; Vampires, Zombies, Werewolves, Ghosts, Witches, you name it. Then around the age of fifteen/sixteen I discovered the world of serial killers. It all began with an unhealthy interest in Jack the Ripper and progressed from there.

Nowadays, I’m well known amongst friends and family for living and breathing halloween and horror. I love the films, the books, the television programs and I especially love true life creepy stories. I can’t help it.

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Picking up the Pieces.

Today is going to be a bit of a heart to heart. I haven’t blogged in a while and this post should hopefully explain some of the reasons why.

Some of you may, or may not know that I suffer with mental health problems. Unfortunately, this does not mean that I just feel a bit anxious sometimes or I get down in the dumps. I suffer quite intense mental health problems. Over the last year, I have struggled with my mental health more than ever before. I was officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety around July 2016 and was advised to take anti-depressants. I was also offered six free counselling sessions through my work which I could not have been more grateful for.

It’s eight months on and I’m finally beginning to feel like myself again; I have been back at work and I must say, I’ve thrown myself into it. Some people might think that I’m pushing myself too much however, I’m really loving feeling good again and I want to make the most of it.

Today, hasn’t been great. I received a rejection from a job that I had applied for, a job that I REALLY wanted. I had tried so hard at the interview and gave almost all I could, as you do in an interview, but unfortunately, it just wasn’t my time.

I had a cry of course, all the thoughts ran through my head like ‘All of that effort was for nothing.’ but, it wasn’t for nothing. It would be so easy for me to be disheartened about the whole situation but, this is not what is going to happen. I’m going to pick myself up and get on with it. I’m hoping more than anything that this will give me something to work on and I can use this opportunity to progress.

I have always been a strong believer that things happen for a reason and I’m sure there is a reason why this wasn’t my time, hopefully this will come to light eventually. Maybe there’s a publisher just waiting to pick up my book idea?! Haha, wishful thinking there!

Either way, if I look at this situation as a whole, it’s not ideal but, it’s amazing to see how far I have come. A few months ago I was so in the dark that I couldn’t see the light; now I’m able to pick myself up and look at the positives, this in itself is a massive achievement!

I have never really posted anything this personal on my blog however, I want anyone who is having a hard time to know that it can get better, you just have to be patient and persistent. You can do it!

If anyone needs any advice or just someone to listen, feel free to drop me a message. There’s nothing more rewarding than knowing that you can be there for someone in their time of need.

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