Picking up the Pieces.

Today is going to be a bit of a heart to heart. I haven’t blogged in a while and this post should hopefully explain some of the reasons why.

Some of you may, or may not know that I suffer with mental health problems. Unfortunately, this does not mean that I just feel a bit anxious sometimes or I get down in the dumps. I suffer quite intense mental health problems. Over the last year, I have struggled with my mental health more than ever before. I was officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety around July 2016 and was advised to take anti-depressants. I was also offered six free counselling sessions through my work which I could not have been more grateful for.

It’s eight months on and I’m finally beginning to feel like myself again; I have been back at work and I must say, I’ve thrown myself into it. Some people might think that I’m pushing myself too much however, I’m really loving feeling good again and I want to make the most of it.

Today, hasn’t been great. I received a rejection from a job that I had applied for, a job that I REALLY wanted. I had tried so hard at the interview and gave almost all I could, as you do in an interview, but unfortunately, it just wasn’t my time.

I had a cry of course, all the thoughts ran through my head like ‘All of that effort was for nothing.’ but, it wasn’t for nothing. It would be so easy for me to be disheartened about the whole situation but, this is not what is going to happen. I’m going to pick myself up and get on with it. I’m hoping more than anything that this will give me something to work on and I can use this opportunity to progress.

I have always been a strong believer that things happen for a reason and I’m sure there is a reason why this wasn’t my time, hopefully this will come to light eventually. Maybe there’s a publisher just waiting to pick up my book idea?! Haha, wishful thinking there!

Either way, if I look at this situation as a whole, it’s not ideal but, it’s amazing to see how far I have come. A few months ago I was so in the dark that I couldn’t see the light; now I’m able to pick myself up and look at the positives, this in itself is a massive achievement!

I have never really posted anything this personal on my blog however, I want anyone who is having a hard time to know that it can get better, you just have to be patient and persistent. You can do it!

If anyone needs any advice or just someone to listen, feel free to drop me a message. There’s nothing more rewarding than knowing that you can be there for someone in their time of need.

xXx

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9 thoughts on “Picking up the Pieces.”

  1. Hi,
    Sorry to hear you didn’t get the position, but super well done for trying!
    I agree with everything you say, everything happens for a reason and I’m sure there will be plenty of other opportunities in your future. I only met you a few weeks ago, however from what I have seen you are a wonderful, caring and genuine person and just being around you makes me feel good 🙂 That’s a beautiful gift in itself. Never forget that, and always be proud of who you are and what you have achieved so far.
    Thanks for being so honest and open and sharing this post, It means a lot to me and I’m sure it will to everyone else who reads it.
    Hugs,
    Adele xx

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    1. Awww Adele. Thank you so much, this means the world to me! I’m so gutted but luckily I’ve managed to take so much from the experience. Honestly, I’m so happy to have met you, you’re a wonderful human being! Thank you so much! Big love xx

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  2. Can I just let everyone know what an amazing lady Bex is , at the young age of 16/17 this beauty decided she could no longer live in the little seaside town she grew up in and moved herself away from all friends and family to start over in London ( all by herself), she’ knew there was more to the world and knew there was more to her than the same old routine that everyone else followed. Now not many people would do this and me especially . I am beyond proud of this super woman and find her such an inspiration . You really need to watch out for this one as I know like I always have done that big things are going to come from her . Pups keep that head up high and know that you’re loved xxxxx

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    1. Jelly, I’m guessing this is you. Thank you so much for this beautiful comment. I am truly overwhelmed by everyone’s support and love. I certainly hope you are right and big things are to come! Love ya xxxxx

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  3. Hi there, just want to say thankyou writing something so powerful and honest 🙂 stuff like this is what needs to be said around mental illness- there is always a way forward, no matter how frustrating or impossible it might feel getting there.

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