Getting Some Headspace.

When you think of Meditation, what do you think of? Maybe Hippies, Buddhists, or waterfalls and tree roots. In all honesty, Meditation could be related to any of these things, it can be related to anything you want.

downloadRecently I have fallen head over heels in love with meditation. I remember from a young age that my dad would often meditate and I was always eager to give it a try. I struggled many a time to meditate due to a wandering mind; I always believed that if you were thinking whilst trying to meditate then you were doing it wrong but this could not have been further from the truth.

My dad always used to explain to me that meditation is simply resting your mind; painting, walking or even listening to music are just a few activities that could be classed as meditating as they allow your brain to take a break. These days, our brains are constantly stimulated, we are often multitasking – this includes when you are watching a film and checking your phone at the same time – and our brains never get the chance to shut down; I am a strong believer that this is partly the cause for an increase in anxiety and insomnia. It is so important to take time to wind down and this is a lesson that I have learnt the hard way.

I got to a point, as most of you know, where my mental health was at an all time low and although I’m not going to go into detail about this on this post, I do want to point out that one of the biggest battles I faced was the war inside my head every single night. I would lay in bed just internally screaming at my thoughts to shut up and I know that many of you probably experience a very similar situation most nights. I tried so many different things including meditating however, I wasn’t really sure how to successfully shut my brain off and focus my mind; then I found Headspace.

I would just like to state that this post is no way sponsored or an Ad etc. I just really want to recommend an app that helped save my life. As ridiculous as that sounds, there were points when I felt suicidal and meditation, along with many other factors, was one of those things that grounded me and made me feel less like a shell and more like an actual human being.

The app encourages daily meditation, whether it’s ten minutes or half an hour. There are daily meditations as well as some designed to tackle specific issues. All meditations are guided and you can literally pop your headphones in and relax your mind. I choose to mainly meditate in the mornings to set me up for the day, to deal with any anxieties that may be building. Also, one of my favourite little extras in the app is the notifications that you can receive throughout the day which are just a gentle nudge to remind you to be more mindful.

You can download Headspace from the app store and gain access to tons of free guided meditations, why not give it a go?

On that note, I’m off to meditate. Ciao x

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To anyone that is still listening…

Does anyone actually remember me by this point? Ah well, I’m going to continue talking like you are all listening.

HELLO, it’s me, your friendly neighbourhood Viper and if you hadn’t noticed, I have been away a while. This is mainly due to moving house, dealing with some personal life crap & most importantly, catching up on Game of Thrones. That is correct, I am now officially part of the GoT fandom & I am so proud.

Halloween is nearly here and the nights are getting longer. This is my favourite time of year & if you didn’t already know, I am a witch. Yes, literally a witch. I practice witchcraft, I worship nature, I celebrate Sabbats and Esbats. Hocus Pocus and all that jazz. Being a Witch is quite a logical reason for my love of Halloween and Autumn in general. Halloween, or Samhain as it is known to us, is the Witch’s New Year and this time of year tends to pull me out of any creative blocks I may be experiencing and generally it gives me a new spark for life. What I am trying to say is that you will be seeing & hearing a lot more from me & I have so many things to share with you all, so keep those peepers peeled & expect the unexpected. (That was not a hint that your ex is about to appear on a beach somewhere- those in the know, will know!)

By the way, I am currently reading American Psycho. No spoilers, but someone dies…

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Health & Happiness.

This week I did something that I never thought I would actually do, I only went and joined the bloody gym!

fc2a9607d32b3cbd6bdee811e662aa81So, I’m all for self love etc etc. this is of course extremely important especially in a society where you are expected to fit into certain boxes to be deemed attractive, and I can not stress enough that this whole expectation has not had even the slightest influence on my decision to work out.

As someone who has spent the majority of their life wanting to cry every time I looked in the mirror, someone who was rejected by boys I liked on the basis that I was ‘too ugly’, someone who was bullied throughout what feels like my entire school life, I have always had the strongest feelings of hatred towards my body, as I’m sure many of you have. These feelings have been conjured up by the media and what they portray as ‘beauty’ and only recently have I done a complete one eighty and have embraced my body’s rebellion against society’s expectations.

In the last year or so, I feel like I have reached my ‘final form’ so to speak and I’ve developed a way of dressing that suits my body type, fits into my style and allows me to feel comfortable at any occasion. Corr I sounded like an advertisement for some shaping underwear just then….Anyway, I have learnt to appreciate my curves and learn how to emphasize them in all the right ways. So, why have I joined the gym?

I have joined the gym for a few different reasons, the first one being the most obvious; health. The women in my family who I seem to take after physique-wise, were all quite barrel-like and many of them have experienced health problems due to this. On top of this, I have scoliosis which has been known to worsen when a person gains a significant amount of weight, also I’m just generally REALLY unfit and would like to walk up three flights of stairs without feeling like all the oxygen has been removed from the world.

The second reason I have started working out is for my own happiness. So, I am aware that I will always be a curvy lady and I’m completely, 100% okay with that however, I would really love it if certain parts of my body could be slightly less jelly-like and more toned. I have a huge butt, seriously, and I am actually quite happy with that but it wobbles just a tad too much for my liking.

The third and final reason is for my mental health. Joining the gym has given me an extra hobby and something to do when I’m bored; luckily the gym is just down the road from me and is open 24/7 so I can pop along whenever I fancy. Once I have completed a gym session there is a feeling of achievement and my mind is often a lot more refreshed and clearer. I can not stress enough how great it is for everyone to partake in activities that work towards an end goal, it can be the boost that everyone needs.

Most gyms will offer day passeswhich is what I did as a taster, so if you fancy giving it a go I can not recommend it enough. I often find it hard to get motivated to exercise but I have found that going with a friend can really spur me on and make the whole experience more relaxed and a right giggle.

I’m looking for new routines so let me know if you have any, I would love a bit of variety! Maybe I will also update you all on my progress.

B.Viper

Talking ’bout my Generation.

Generations are a strange thing. I personally find that I perhaps don’t fall onto the stereotypes of my peers and weirdly enough, I don’t seem to be the only one. I wanted to take the opportunity within the next few weeks to explore some thoughts about my generation, good or bad.

Following on from my political outburst a couple of days ago, one of the most prominent ideas floating around lately is that our generation’s participation in the recent general election has caused a huge effect on the results and turnout. Although we most certainly cannot take all the credit, it is still something to be be proud of.

The politics in this country has caused a division between the generations and our political stances are separated by age (with the exception of some, of course). It’s interesting that when discussing the recent general election with my friends and colleagues, it seems to be a reoccurring theory that as a person ages, they tend to sway more towards the right wing however, I’m not entirely sure that I agree with this theory.

This election has seen a huge improvement in young and old working together to achieve results that will better the lives of everyone. The party policies focused on points that affected all ages such as; the NHS, Brexit, Taxes etc. and through the power of social media, people were able to share their stories and educate each other, which resulted in increased empathy for generations other than our own.

Not only did we see different age groups coming together, I also noticed that even classes seemed to be on the same wave length. Living in Brighton, I am often surrounded by the Middle Class. Although I am someone who would love for us to live in a classless society, I tend to consider myself Working Class however, I have an awful lot of friends who come from a Middle Class background. The amazing thing about the recent general election was that it became more and more apparent as the campaign went on, that for the majority of us, class did not matter. We were pulling together and fighting for issues that effected everyone, regardless of class, and that is how it should be!

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So, back to the point that I was trying to make. In previous years, our generation have been seen as lazy, selfish and quite frankly stupid. The government and the media have completely underestimated this generation and it feels great! There has been a noticeable rise in youngsters attending protests and everywhere I turn I can see or hear my peers discussing politics. As someone who has always had an interest in politics, I am revelling in the fact that I can actually hold decent conversations with my friends and for once they genuinely have an opinion on the topic, huzzah!

We may have not had a total breakthrough, but we have certainly made a good start and I truly hope that my generation continue to fight for the things that really do matter.

For the many, not the few.

Let’s Get Liberal.

**On a quick note before I get into the subject that this post was originally intended for, I just wanted to make a little public announcement to some of my followers to advise you all that, unfortunately, I will be ‘quitting’ YouTube. If you would like an explanation then let me know but, I will no longer be creating YouTube videos.**

Hello, hello! I’m back in action and it feels great to be posting on my blog again. If you have been one of the few people that have stuck around, I cannot thank you enough and hopefully I will now be able to deliver the things that you hung around for.

Today I wanted to talk about a subject that means a lot to me and is a very hot topic currently, and that is politics. I am extremely passionate about politics, to the point where I drive my nearest and dearest up the wall yabbering on and at any opportunity I will delve head first into a political debate.

18953006_10154715144113660_1419903330712644075_n.jpgAs the majority of you are probably aware, the UK has just undergone a rather rapid and spontaneous general election. Our current Prime Minister, Theresa May called upon this election to make a point. She wanted to prove that the people are behind her and she believed that her party, the Conservatives, would win the election by a majority of more than one hundred seats. WHAT A FOOL SHE IS. Yes, the Tories were the party that gained the largest amount of votes however, they lost their majority with Labour gaining an extra thirty seats to the previous election. The election resulted in a hung parliament and we are currently held in a strange place where the UK is unsure what is going to happen next. There are talks of the Conservatives joining up with the DUP to gain a majority however, this does not seem favourable by the public as the DUP are a party that is known to be against a lot of basic human rights i.e gay marriage and abortion.

It seems that Jeremy Corbyn, the leader of the Labour party, is still rallying his troops and continuing the fight for a fairer Britain. Jezza is determined that he will become Prime Minister in the near future and with more and more people joining his cause, everyday he seems to get one step closer.

So, where do I stand on all this? As you have quite possibly realised already by this point, I’m a UKIP supporter. HA ONLY KIDDING. I am very much cemented to the left hand side, and I don’t intend to budge. Loony lefty, Social Justice Warrior, call me whatever but I am all about that Labour Liberty baby!

Friday morning I woke up with a feeling of  anxiety that I hadn’t felt in a very long time. The uncertainty was an intense feeling and although I had ensured that I didn’t get my hopes up, there was still a small part of me that was gripping on to some kind of hope that I would wake up to the best news possible. Unfortunately, as expected, the election did not turn out how I would have liked but, it wasn’t all bad.

This election saw a huge rise in voters and a large proportion of that was due to young people actually choosing to stand up and fight for their future! This made me so unbelievably proud of my generation, I have always found myself attempting to convince my peers that their votes matter and it turns out all that was needed to get them motivated was a down-to-earth leader who genuinely cares about their rights. Jeremy Corbyn is that leader.

Like the majority of my family, I have always been Labour and now even more so with Jezza in charge. I’m even seriously considering becoming a member of the Labour party myself! Call me foolish, but I can genuinely see a big change happening in the way this country is run and hopefully one day we will have a society that I’m happy to raise children in.

Anyway that’s enough for now, let me know your thoughts and feelings on the election, even if your opinions differ from my own, I always love a healthy debate! You can also expect a lot more political posts from me in the future.

JC4PM.
For the many, not the few. 

Return of the Viper

I’m such a slacker. I cannot express how annoyed I am at the fact that I haven’t posted on here since March 26th! Dearie me, what a let down. However, I am back and I really do plan to stick to it this time. I can tell you are all desperate to hear what I have been up to, so here goes.

Firstly, and probably the most important thing that has occurred in my life lately is that I have a new job! Yep, you heard me right, I am no longer working at Lush. You are probably thinking thumb_IMG_1801_1024that I’m mad to give up that job, but in all honesty when it really comes down to it, working at Lush is just a retail job and I’m really not the biggest fan of retail work. Three years was a pretty good run with the company and I made some fun memories of course, but the time came where I needed to move on. Now heres the exciting part; I am now working for St John Ambulance as part of their events team! I am loving my new job and the hours are much better suited to me. As someone who writes, blogs, makes videos and all the other things I attempt to cram into my life, it’s great for me to have my evenings and weekends free.

My novel writing is going well. I now have a concrete plot-line and characters. I spent some time putting together a concrete plan and I re-discovered my motivation for writing. Expect a finished first draft by the end of this year!

My YouTube videos have been extremely successful and enjoyable lately. I am making mainly book related videos, I feel that this makes more sense as it is a subject that I am passionate about and can talk about for hours. It also ties in well with my book writing and I’m using YouTube to document my novel writing. Bex Viper on YouTube

I have started a book club! It’s something I have wanted to do for so long now and I finally took the plunge. It’s still early days but there has been tons on interest, so I’m pleased. If you would like to join the book club then follow this link: Books Bloody Books

I don’t have much else to add on here other than the fact that I did go sober for a month! It was the detox that I needed however, now I’m back on the occa17799093_10206782950252823_1817104917970282624_nsional gin, of course. The plan is to keep up with this blog, using it to document things that interest me, things I want to express and just a place to post general ramblings.

Thanks for reading this rather pointless post and I’ll be back soon!

Going Sober.

Today I have decided to begin a month of sobriety.

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As most of you will probably know by now, I suffer with mental health problems. I haven’t discussed this in too much detail on my blog, instead I have spoken about things that affect my mental health or things that are affected by it and this post is going to be very much a long those lines.

Anyone who takes anti-depressants on a regular basis will know that the majority of the time you are advised not to drink alcohol whilst medicated however, if like me, there is a high possibility that you will be on these tablets for a long time, if not the rest of your life, you are often able to begin to introduce alcohol little by little back into your life. This is what I have been trying to do but unfortunately, I have given up.

Every time I have a drink, whether it’s just one or maybe a few, I will wake up the next morning feeling awful. I instantly feel symptoms of anxiety creeping up on me and some days it can even bring my depression up to the surface. We all know that alcohol is a depressant so it’s no surprise really that this happens. For a while, I kept adjusting how much and what I was drinking, in an attempt to discover my limit but I kept waking up the following day feeling like everything was too much to handle.

I have come to the conclusion that whilst I’m in a situation where my mental health is slightly un-stable and my body is getting used to the medication I am taking, I need to lay off the booze. This has brought me to the decision that I shall be going sober from a month starting today.

It’s going to be an interesting journey and I’m not sure how it will pan out but what I do know is that I need to look after myself and alcohol is not assisting in that. An extra bonus to this is that hopefully I will save some money!

I will post on here after the month and summarise how it was and my next steps. If you are sober, straight edge or have had any experience with giving up drinking I would love some advice!

Thanks for reading & have a fabulous day/night/evening!